TITLE: Erased
AUTHOR: stellar_dust
EMAIL: stellar_dust_x@yahoo.com
WEBSITE: http://katycat.net/xfiles/
ARCHIVE/FEEDBACK: Sure.
SPOILERS: TINH, DeadAlive, Three Words
PAIRING: M/S
RATING: PG-13
CHALLENGE: FTF soundtrack: Deuce
WORD COUNT: 184
DISCLAIMER: Oh, believe me, all this angst and crap 
is *so* not mine.
SUMMARY: Mulder feels erased.
DATE: 10/09/2004


I don't belong anymore.  Not in my office, my 
apartment, my car, the gym, the whole damn city.  
Everywhere I look, it accuses me:  You were dead, 
and the world moved on.  We don't need you anymore.

Even my fish are alive.  If I'd been here, they'd 
all have starved.

I think I could probably bear all that.  But I 
don't belong with Scully either.

I left everything with her, my work, my life, and 
she -

She made so much more of it than I ever could.  
She's ahead of me now, more than me, and she took 
my life with her.  It's all hers now.

I feel redundant.  Unnecessary.  The discarded 
rough draft of a bestselling novel.  I left her in 
D.C., but she left me in the dust.

I feel erased.

I'd leave, but I have nowhere to go.  Who would 
hire the shadow of an invisible man?  And killing 
myself would be - ungrateful.

See?  She doesn't even knock when she comes over.

Scully, what -?  Is she - is she *crying*?

Oh God.  I'm sorry.  I'm here.

I think I'm crying, too.

Maybe -